what have you done today to make you feel proud

recently I found this great song of Heather Small - putting in the list several time every evening...It somehow appeals to me very much - to my thoughts and feelings...

I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom

Still so many answers I don't know
Realize that to question is how we grow
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

It's never too late to try
You could be so many people
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

We need a change
Do it today
I can feel my spirit rising
We need a change
So do it today
'Cause I can see a clear horizon

ACT

it would be strange not to write about ACT 2007 - the most amazing conference I've been so far! Although it's two days passed I'm still confused - why it's so hard to back to reality - responsibilities in AIESEC, studies...most of my thoughts are still there...

people I met there motivated me so much - I think I totally changed my concept (see previous posts here:) The international faci team and our beloved chair - really cool people every one different, funny and last but not least - AChiever! It was great to work with you! Maybe for first time I realized the cultural diversity - we were from different countries but still understanding each other (even sometimes without English). I feel proud be part of the team created this conference!
When I remember the funny and great moments I wish to be back to Sofia and be with you again! Lazy bastardinos looking for that prolongatore :))))
Our great team - Jagoda, Zo, Aga, Milojko, Ashad, Dobrila, Iva, Tokrotka and Stanojka!

stop worrying and some update

is there something that can surprise me? for some time I think I become a "nepukist" - it's good not to worry too much about everything:) or I need some new excitement in life? maybe love...

LIST passed - amazing XP, but surprisingly easy for me personally...I can re-think my concept that people cannot motivate me so much - great new ideas and inspiration from the new members, from Aga, from Mitko, from my EB, OCPs...Thank you all!

Now the future for my LC seems better, much better:) And it's time to think about my future...Going back home and not having internet I read sugars from the seminar, and then remembering one post from a friend decided to look at all the sugars I have - wow how many conferences, memories... Some conferences with only one or two sugars, others with many of them. Is it necessary to be popular on an AIESEC conference? Or this shows me my development? What is development in AIESEC? After all we live also non-AIESEC life during this time - it can also develop you somehow...What can be my contribution to the success of the organization in future? Am I result oriented or I prefer to think so?

How to know this without trying? So I'll try!

energy

i wonder how easy i can loose it and soon after this to get it back...sometimes i just need to hear cool song and ready to work till late. in moments that i'm totally tired of everything only music can help:) or something else? for sure it's not people that make me energetic - sounds strange but true. still searching for what makes me tick...

strange weekend

it started with travel to Sofia. Great discussion about life and AIESEC with Dancho in the bus...although it was so cold (I'm wondering why do you pay 13 lv for bus if it's cold)
Coffee and chocolate for breakfast in the MC office - every time I come here I find it very nice to work in such an office :P
Then the GA starts - with delay as usual (why is it usual for some ppl to be late???). From the very beginning it looked random - didn't give an opportunity to Aga to be part of the discussions, searching for compromise even if it's not needed, not prepared people with high self-confidence, people not willing to talk about arguments, so cold that your mind is freezing...At the end - decision that I don't support, but I didn't do almost anything to change it, I was too disappointed...
In the evening - almost planned dinner with Ivo and Nasko to talk about future plans - something nice for the day:)
Then meeting my parents who came to Sofia to meet their mates from University they haven't met for 20 years...strange. But I'm happy I talked with my parents and had some hours without AIESEC
On the morning I feel so energetic that I cant believe...The way back to Svishtov (again cold bus) was time for self-reflection, thinking about strategic development of my LC - I like traveling alone!
EB meeting, GM, rearranging the office, calling candidates, first meal for the day at 23.30....
Just now I received a mail from a friend, very interesting indeed - I need some time to realize what she is advising me...

my days

recently my days looks like this:
get up around 8.30 (almost every time later:P)
go to the office at 10, standing on the info-desk (I didn't expect this will be so energizing, at the end I didn't want to go)
meetings with my EB and OCPs, with the Dean, with Uni newspaper
missing lunch :(
going to some boooring lectures (I start to think if there is anything useful there and whether not to make sth next year)
having dinner :)
go back home and sitting on the pc till late
almost every evening planning to go to disco but still haven't do this...

uncertainty

it's strange that in moments I'm really busy and my life is intense I start to analyze myself...These days I'm questioning myself a lot.

Am I capable of contributing to the success? Is this the right place for me? Is it enough to put your passion and energy or something else is needed? I miss the feedback...