energy

i wonder how easy i can loose it and soon after this to get it back...sometimes i just need to hear cool song and ready to work till late. in moments that i'm totally tired of everything only music can help:) or something else? for sure it's not people that make me energetic - sounds strange but true. still searching for what makes me tick...

strange weekend

it started with travel to Sofia. Great discussion about life and AIESEC with Dancho in the bus...although it was so cold (I'm wondering why do you pay 13 lv for bus if it's cold)
Coffee and chocolate for breakfast in the MC office - every time I come here I find it very nice to work in such an office :P
Then the GA starts - with delay as usual (why is it usual for some ppl to be late???). From the very beginning it looked random - didn't give an opportunity to Aga to be part of the discussions, searching for compromise even if it's not needed, not prepared people with high self-confidence, people not willing to talk about arguments, so cold that your mind is freezing...At the end - decision that I don't support, but I didn't do almost anything to change it, I was too disappointed...
In the evening - almost planned dinner with Ivo and Nasko to talk about future plans - something nice for the day:)
Then meeting my parents who came to Sofia to meet their mates from University they haven't met for 20 years...strange. But I'm happy I talked with my parents and had some hours without AIESEC
On the morning I feel so energetic that I cant believe...The way back to Svishtov (again cold bus) was time for self-reflection, thinking about strategic development of my LC - I like traveling alone!
EB meeting, GM, rearranging the office, calling candidates, first meal for the day at 23.30....
Just now I received a mail from a friend, very interesting indeed - I need some time to realize what she is advising me...

my days

recently my days looks like this:
get up around 8.30 (almost every time later:P)
go to the office at 10, standing on the info-desk (I didn't expect this will be so energizing, at the end I didn't want to go)
meetings with my EB and OCPs, with the Dean, with Uni newspaper
missing lunch :(
going to some boooring lectures (I start to think if there is anything useful there and whether not to make sth next year)
having dinner :)
go back home and sitting on the pc till late
almost every evening planning to go to disco but still haven't do this...

uncertainty

it's strange that in moments I'm really busy and my life is intense I start to analyze myself...These days I'm questioning myself a lot.

Am I capable of contributing to the success? Is this the right place for me? Is it enough to put your passion and energy or something else is needed? I miss the feedback...